Thursday, August 12, 2010

Exactly One Week To Go!

I feel like this has been the longest pregnancy in history...and I know I'm not alone on this thought. I announced my pregnancy last December!

Well, I am typing this blog through tears, both from sleep deprivation and guilt. This has not been an easy pregnancy, to say the least. I have so many people telling me how bad they feel for me, that I realized I must complain way too much. I should just feel blessed to be able to carry a life! I want to focus these last 7 days before having my beautiful son, on how lucky I know I am. What a miracle it is to be able to create a life. There are so many that aren't able to have children, the physical things I've gone through this pregnancy shouldn't be what I'm focusing on. I know since I only have a week to go this may seem like an "opportune" time to come to this realization...better late than never?

Next Wednesday I will go to bed with the excitement of knowing I will get to hold and kiss my baby boy the very next morning! Thursday, August 19th at 7:30 am I'll appreciate all the prayers I can get during my c-section.

God Bless,
One Very Blessed Mommy

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Taking it day by day...



"Relax, get lots of rest while you still can, the day will be here soon enough, enjoy this time before your baby comes"...this is all much easier said than done. The baby arrival anxiety is really getting to me, bad! Everything on my body hurts and I'm not sleeping at night, so I just want to be up with COOPER already. I want to see him, hold him, kiss him, feed him...and EVEN CHANGE HIM! But despite the VERY strong and even painful contractions I've been having, he's just not ready. As of yesterday I am still only 1cm dilated - so the wait for my scheduled c-section (August 19th) continues.

I don't know if I've explained why the scheduled C...which seems to be a popular topic on baby blogs and websites these days. No, I'm not doing it to "fit in my schedule" or to "pick the baby's birthday", or because "I don't want to go through labor". 5 1/2 years ago I went in to labor 2 weeks before my due date. It was around midnight and contractions were NOT very strong and NOT painful at all, but they were timed at 3-5 minutes apart so after walking around, sipping cold water, and taking a warm bath, my mother-in-law (also a nurse) said GO TO L&D! So I did...totally thinking I would be sent home. The L&D nurses thought I was crazy that I wasn't in pain because the contractions were in fact very close together and strong (by the monitor's standards of course). They admitted me around 12:30am and at 3am my water broke. I went through 14 hours of labor and two full Pitocin drips and only dilated 3cm...ending up in an emergency c-section. SO, when asked if I wanted to try a VBAC (Vaginal Birth After C-Section) I actually thought very long and hard about it. The only thing I had missed out on was actually pushing the baby out...everything else was LABOR. I had not made up my mind, and then mid this pregnancy had to have a minor surgery in a "not so fun area" that helped my decision to schedule a c-section. You see, I'm still "recovering" and have scar tissue that shouldn't be strained (by pushing a baby).

Things to do to "take it day by day": I've caught up on all my recorded shows, but I still look forward to Maury Povich...only this morning I woke up to DirecTV not working! So I entertain myself with Facebook and now updating this Blog - oh and crossword puzzles! They are kind of addicting! Soon that will all be replaced with staring at my beautiful baby boy (and feeding, changing, etc.).

I can't take away from my 5 year old, Jayson, though. He DOES keep me entertained. He stays at his Godmother's during the day - she'll take him to swim lessons and watch him for me so that I can remain "resting" on bedrest. But once he's around me, he keeps me laughing and constantly surprises me with his knowledge (of everything). He is a MAJOR baseball fan...seriously, ask him what team ANY current major league baseball player is on and he can tell you. Not only that, he'll probably know what team they USED to be on! And he is a master imitator - he loves to mock MLB player's batting stances! I've really got to get all that on video, I'm bad about that. He has been playing baseball and soccer since he was 2 (still in diapers), and recently started basketball and now football. He is a lover of all sports. I'll post a couple pics from his first practice at Fullerton Pop Warner - GO TITANS!